It feels like I haven't blogged in ages, and looking back it appears I truly haven't (aside from a couple of hyperemesis posts at the beginning of December). This is mostly because I started my new job in November and between the changes this brought about in our family life and the fact Christmas seemed to appear out of nowhere this year, I just haven't had the time to get online.
But I couldn't let the end of the year pass without some reflection on the events and feelings my little family has experienced this year. It may not have felt much like Christmas this year, but the past couple of days I've been feeling the very real and familiar sense of a new beginning creeping in, something I associate very clearly with the week between Christmas and New Year...
This time last year I wanted to desperately believe that 2012 would be our year, the year that things began to change. And I think this has happened to quite a large extent... But it has not been easy at all! This year, though, I truly believe that we have reached the "tipping point" and that 2013 is going to bring about a lot more peace for us as a family and as individuals.
I believe in the cycles of life, whether they are a day, a month, a year or more! There has been a lot of talk over the past month about the Mayan calendar, which to me is just another cycle. When I look back there have been many cycles in my life, of differing lengths, in which certain challenges and life experiences have played out. One such cycle feels like it is finally drawing to a close and a fresh cycle beginning. In the past five years, ever since Tim and I met, we have both suffered with our health in various ways, causing us both to change aspects of our lives. This is a very sim plistic way of expressing this, but I do not feel the need to dwell on this aspect for long right now. I just wanted to mention it as I feel it was instrumental in us both finally making changes in our lives that have brought us to.this point.
2013 feels full of hope to me. It feels like a year in which positive change will lead to much needed healing. It feels like a year when loose ends will start to be gathered together. And it feels like the year our hopes and dreams of the past five years will start to take root and blossom.
I'm not kidding myself... I know very clearly that change isn't easy. But I still feel very positive about the year we are about to enter. Does anyone else feel this way too?